George Sodini

(Written: August 2009)

In light of George Sodini’s blogging efforts, I’ve decided I would like to start a blog. Or restart I suppose (I once had a livejournal). I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while, and Sodini set me over the edge to finally begin.

In no way do I condone his murders or injurings (if that’s a word), but I can relate to most of his blog concerning life, control, loneliness and happiness. I also found some of hiis racially charged rants entertaining as well. It goes without say that he was disturbed for actually getting up and shooting and killing people. But once the murders are extracted from the equation, his internal monologue is probably that of a good lot of people. Again, i for one could relate.


I feel like all if not most aspects of life have something to do with an innate snese or want of control. Control over one’s self, one’s surroundings one’s life, and the lives of others. It’s innate, territorial. A top-of-the-food-chain animal claims his land, protects his herd and hunts and kills those he feels are no threat. I feel like people tend to test others in order to validate some innate need for territorial control.

There are the good forms of control. like cleanliness, consideration, honing of talents. ANd I suppose a good form of loss of control would be healthy laughter. The only control I would want to strive for would be control over myself and my immediate universe, aka my life, without exuding control over the lives of others for some sadistic form of validation. I think the first step is self-discipline. Not being who I feel others should see me as, no longer ‘playing to the masses,’ but just being genuine in every situation.

“No evil propensity of the human heart is so powerful that it may not be subdued by discipline.” ~ - Seneca